Well here we are on a saturday evening and i am sooooo bored.I am also wondering when i will get to see my children and grandson again.Its already been a month for both and i am starting to get a little anxious about it.If i only knew when i would get to see them all again i would be fine.If only i could see my grandchild once in awhile on webcam or get a call and talk to him i would feel much better.Tessa my youngest at least always answers her phone and we chat at least once a week.I have been deprived from my oldest for so long and would love to catch up with her since she is closer,but i know motherhood is hard to find time to do anything.I wish everyone would remember that i to am a mother and would love to see and hear from children as well.I miss them all so much and know that they have lives as well,but they are my life i love them all so much and want to be with them.I want to go to Houston to visit but i have to work next weekend and i would only have one day to visit,and with Tessa i guess i will visit when she is not studying.What to do.Oh well i guess i will see them when i can.I hope Caiden doesnt forget me.Tired of feeling sorry for myself tonight.Maybe tomorrow will be better.